I've got another speech this Saturday and I'm going to try to do it without reading my speech straight from the paper - notes only. Soooo in order to relax enough to get in front of a bunch of people and talk, I'm trying to find something I can take to calm me down without konking me out. Today's expertiment - Xanax.
Result thus far - well, I'm calm as hell. But I don't know if I can give a speech. About thirty minutes ago my aunt asked how I was doing and I replied by reciting the intro to one of the most famous speeches of all time. Sort of. Here's what I said word for word, "Two, Four and Scevenyears ago . . . no, wait . . . oh, shit. This ain't good."
Yep, I'm stoned.
Next Experiment - The pharmacist told me I should try a Beta blocker instead. Not sure what that is. Apparently Betas are a bad thing. Alphas and Gammas are cool, Deltas and Omegas are okay, but Betas are a no-no. That's for tomorrow - we'll so how it works.
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Obviously, you have never seen Betas in a tank full of other fish the Betas consider prey. They terrorize every other living thing, and a few inanimate objects as well.
I'm both grinning and saying poor you, at once. Are you more nervous this time because of the last speech? Remember how well the first one went? God, I'm terrible with any of those kinds of drugs--extra strength tylenol makes me dizzy. Be careful. No one really minds when a speaker is a little nervous, do they? Don't think deep breathing will do the trick?
My daughter said she found when taking Benadryl for her allergies that she was calmer about social tasks--but Benadryl also makes me pass out. So ...
Wow, you're really experimenting every day with something new? That actually sounds a little fun, except when it's time to function.
This time I'm more nervous than ever. So far every speech I've given I've skirted the part I fear the most. I read, I've answered questions, but I've yet to just stand up there and talk. Saturday I'm hitting it head on. I told my wife that this will either be my last speech or my first one.
As far as the experiments, I kinda have to. I hardly ever even take asprin, so I have no idea how this stuff will affect me. And I've seen how I crash and burn without it. My nerves just get too tight.
God, so many times I've considered finding some sort of lude type drug when I had to speak in public, and always my little inner voice said 'Bad girl! BAD!' You're my hero.
LMAO good luck dude. Have you tried Marijuana? (Probably won't help with the speech, unless you wanna tangent and talk about igloos and the awesome texture of the carpet, and how you can hear your hair growing, then stare at the crowd, smiling for way too long...)
Good luck, whichever method you use. Is this a related speech about the shuttle from your last time? You'll do great.
Mary Jane never did that much for me. It may be because I was always so damn drunk when I tried it I never could get any higher without passing out. It also made me cough like I had TB - constant, nonstop hacking.
When Micky worked in a very high stress job which had an especially trying period just before Christmas, with him working 18-hour days, seven days a week for two months, I'd keep him going with Biotone and multivits. One year I could see he was heading for a breakdown big time, so I got him some tranquilisers. A colleauge phoned and I heard Micky's end of the conversation:
"Yeah. Uh-huh. Oh. Okay. What? Oh. Nadia got me some tranquilisers. It's really great. Everything's still going to shit, but I'm simply incapable of caring."
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